Hefty

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl
So cradle your head in your hands
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,

(Anna Nalick - Breathe)

Family

What is it like to have one's own family? (Ok terasa mcm Carrie Bradshaw opening line kejap! lol!)

Ok..ehemm..ehheemmm..

I see my uncle who were once never seemed ready to settle down, now having a family of his own.

I see my uncle n aunty who had to get divorced to realise they still love each other, hence tied the knot for the 2nd time.

I see my aunty adopting a perfect baby as her own daughter..

It seems like yesterday when they were still young and singles. But judging from the WHEN'S YOUR TURN questions i got from yesterday's family gathering, I can feel my time is coming when they are eager to watch me in turn.

To me it is about having a perfect relationship, the one with the physical and chemical attraction as well as Respect for each other. But I must admit it is hard to sustain one. I guess it is about finding a balance, tolerating your partner's weaknesses while eliminating your own, hoping your partner will do the same.

As happy as I am, there are many questions I need to answer to myself before I embark on this family journey, because when I do, I want it to be a PERFECT one.

Yea, I am a dreamer.

Angry

Somebody catch me please!

Peace

• I am never a saint, always a sinner.
• I always cry, as I am weak.
• I am always tested, of which many times I have failed.
• I always repent, but repeat.
• But with the sins, the cries, the tests and repent, there has been always my fear of Him, and I thank Him for blessing me with this.
• I promise I won't give up on myself. Because even at the edge of a cliff, I know letting myself fall would be the biggest mistake of all.
• Syukur for having those who still love me for who I am..who are always present with their judgment absent. Thank You.