April 26, 2010

Debts

  • Hello. I am a 23-year old STUDENT. I have not started earning my own income. I rely on my monthly allowance from my father to support my lifestyle. I recently asked for a Blackberry from my father, who granted me with the budget to buy the phone. Trying to be a decent daughter, I therefore do not want to ask for my monthly allowance for 2 months, to compensate for the purchase of the new phone. Subsequently, I now live on my mother's discretion to give me weekly cash to survive and my mother's supplementary credit card for petrol, bills, and other errands.
  • HOWEVER, I have RM400 worth of MBSA summons to be paid by 7th May 2010 before my name will be blacklisted in Bank Negara's Credit Control Reference Information System (CCRIS), and though I recently charged RM150 for Maxis Bill on the credit card, my phone is now barred because I have exceeded my credit limit of RM200. Furthermore, the credit card statement showed that I had charged more than RM800 for the past month because I decided to shop for interview attires on top of the errands. I am now unable to call out, SMS, nor enjoy my Blackberry internet services, and worse would suffer the possibility of not getting any loans approved in the future because I have no money to not blacklist my name.
  • The conclusion:
  • My expenses have totaled up to RM1400 (RM400 + RM200 + Rm800)
  • I have absolutely no money to even do anything else.
  • This means I have to ask for my monthly allowance from my father, but I am just too guilty to do so.
  • DEFEATS my purpose of not asking for monthly allowance.
  • I wish I am working NOW.
  • I am depressed.
  • My boyfriend is somehow in this inaccessible mode, that I can't confide in him.

April 11, 2010

Cloud Nine

S: If i jadi lebah u jadi apa?
D: Flower kan..?
S: If i jadi bulan?
D: Hurm..i'll be...
I tak leh jadi bumi
Nanti i control u
hehe
I jadi apa syg?
S: U jadi kawah la syg
U'll be the beauty attached around me.
If i jadi bintang?
D: If u bintang, i jadi mmm...
Bintang means planets yg jauh2 tu kan
So i jadi black hole lah
I TRAP U!!
S: U're funny
Kenapa tak jadi tahi bintang
So we can move across the universe together
D: I fikir nak jd tu jgk.. shooting star
Ok Mr. Jiwang..
S: Yes Ms. Sensitive
D: If i jadi clouds, u?
S: I jadi Nine
D: Hahaha..wow u're good..
If i jadi sofa?
S: I jadi ass. Ahaha..can enjoy ur company very much

And the conversation went on... This is priceless... I feel like I'm blessed.

April 10, 2010

Reflect


  • 2 years ago I was told I could find a better guy. Those who told me include his own sisters. I did not believe them even for a bit. Too emotional, too distraught, i clinged on to good memories, hoping those memories will be re-lived.

  • 1 year ago (until now actually), I am hated and being called a liar and a psycho for loving my bestfriend's ex. To be hated and to be called a psycho have left permanent scars and have kept me depressed for quite some time.

  • Now, I am in a position I never thought was possible. My family could not be happier and my soul has never been healed better.

  • ALHAMDULILLAH, All Praise to Allah.

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